Pressing On

The last one month has been a challenging times for me both professionally and in ministry. I was busy and felt like I needed more time in a day. It’s been a challenge to manage my time at work, home, and church.

Just to give a little background. Just early this year, I was given a new challenge at work. I was asked to coordinate works for the international zone. I was thrilled with the opportunity given to me. I worked hard to get up to speed. However, as we all learn, more responsibilities spell more pressures.

My husband and I go to a church founded by people from our countries. Since the first time I met him, he has been a youth group leader.  I look up to him in mostly everything. Prior to going out with him, I had this one fear in my heart. I can’t be a leader!! I can’t have people look up to me!! I am not ready for this!! However, I know that this is part of his calling and I can’t disobey God by asking him to leave the position.

I was having a hard time during the first few months of our courtship because I felt he spent more time for this ministry. At the same time, I did not see it as my ministry yet I have to be one. A couple months ago, I started to change my mind and saw this as our ministry. I devoted my time and energy for this ministry. No matter how bad the church is struggling right now, I decided to work even harder for God.

As I strive to become better both professionally and in ministry, I find a lot of challenges ahead of me. At times, I felt tired. Though they are a very different type of works and environments, but the challenges are the same. When you strive to give the best, there is always something that’s trying to bring you down. As someone stubborn and perfectionist, I don’t want to fail. The more challenges ahead of me, the more changes I bring to myself in order to make them successful. It felt as if my characters are built to be even better. FYI, I am not very patient. My patience is being stretched through these challenges.

At the moment, it’s still not easy, but one thing I know for sure, the end road for me is very bright. Thus, I never look back, only forward.

” Brethren I count not myself to have apprehended:  but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 3:13-14